Cheer up, luv! FFS!
Christ Alive! When will this constant hurt ever end? We are ramping up to go to the Scillies tomorrow for the World Pilot Gig Championships and so I have driven up to Hampshire, to my parents, to drop Mary off to stay with them until I'm back. I hadn't realised just how dependant I had become on Mary, my Rhodesian Ridgeback. I had always thought that the relationship was a bit one sided with her needing me more than I needed her but as the thought of leaving her sett
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Birthday Eve!
It's the eve of my birthday and I have been known to be dramatic so give me a bit of room here. When Facebook tells me that I have 'memories to look back on today' it fills me with a dread now. It's the sort of dread that is compulsive.. it draws me towards it knowing that there's heartbreak on the other side.. especially when it says 'you have memories with Oliver Madge to look back on today'.... Our first weekend of moving our stuff to Portscatho (2024); Holidays in th
Apr 223 min read
Focus!!
The six month mark of the passing of my husband was a biggy for me. I realise now that I'd been thinking about it for months.. ever since I read somewhere that it is common for the six month mark to be the worst in terms of feeling the loss and grief. It became a bit of a monster in my head and as such delivered in terms of being an emotional day. I have to say, I think I peaked early in terms of grief. I think I hit rock bottom around 4 and a half months in... that's
Apr 173 min read
A letter to my love.
My Gorgeous Boy, Six months.. it's been six months since you left me entirely. I say entirely as we both know, I lost you way before then. There's a song with the lyrics; I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you Take me back to the night we met I don't know what I'm supposed to do, haunted by the ghost of you Take me back to the night we met. I listen to it now and again, not too often as it makes me cry.. but the lyrics fit us perfectly. I thought I'd writ
Apr 145 min read
