Backwards Step
I haven't written for a while... which I'm taking as a good thing. I only feel the need to write when I'm feeling compromised by my emotions.. by which I mean sad. That's not to say I have felt unsad.. I continue with my grief as always. I cry as soon as I wake up most mornings and think about Oli constantly, but I've kept myself busy and life has brought friends and laughter which always lightens the load. Today, however, I feel as if I've taken a massive step back
2 days ago2 min read
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Friends..
The following is a piece I found in my old notebook whilst I was looking for other things.. I'm not sure of the exact date it was written but it was sometime in May 2025. I wish you could see where I'm writing this. I'll post a picture but I'm not sure it will do it justice. I'm on a double swing seat with a plump cushion, facing the sun and the sea. In the distance I can see Gull Rock and in the foreground I can see my messed up garden which is in the middle of being la
May 295 min read
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The Scillies!
I haven't written for a while and there is much to catch up on. I'll write a series of posts rather than try and capture it all in one as it's a real mix of emotions... but let me start with the Scillies... the World Pilot Gig Championships which has been my main focus for the last six months and which has, for the most part, kept me sane. When my friend, Kerry, first asked me to be part of a crew to take part in the World Champs I jumped at the chance. She came round to
May 145 min read
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Cheer up, luv! FFS!
Christ Alive! When will this constant hurt ever end? We are ramping up to go to the Scillies tomorrow for the World Pilot Gig Championships and so I have driven up to Hampshire, to my parents, to drop Mary off to stay with them until I'm back. I hadn't realised just how dependant I had become on Mary, my Rhodesian Ridgeback. I had always thought that the relationship was a bit one sided with her needing me more than I needed her but as the thought of leaving her sett
Apr 293 min read
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